Concerns and breakthroughs

Dear Mark Hamilton,

This is very exciting! That was a very impressive meeting. I found it to be very brilliant and exciting! One of my Friday night essences is teaching so hearing you describe the first six months of meetings was great. I have so much going on in my head right now I could write pages and pages of integrations. There’s so much I’m feeling and so much I want to express that I don’t know where to start. I suppose I’ll start with a thank you. Thank you for finding me. I can’t even begin to put my gratitude into words. I was in a dark and painful place when you found me and because of your help I have been able to slowly change and start to regain my power. You have given me the love, the hope and the tools I needed to keep me going. So thank you from the bottom of my heart for believing in me and giving me strength. I love you and am honored to be a member of our family.
Concerns
I have a couple of concerns that I feel I should address. One of these concerns is my location. The collective conscious is vibrating very low here. I’m finding it difficult to keep my energy high so I can grow. I’m going to do what I can here but when I get ahead I plan to relocate. I would appreciate it if you could have someone contact me so we can work out the best place for me to relocate to. I need to be around other members so I can raise my vibration and contribute more to our cause.
Another concern of mine is that sometimes I don’t feel that I have been making as much progress as I should be. I feel like I didn’t absorb everything and take off as fast as I was supposed to. I was told in my letters that certain things were going to happen when I read my first manuscript and they never did. I believe this is because my mind was overwhelmed with stress and negativity. (Mostly financial) I’m sure everything is going to work itself out and that this is probably normal but I am still somewhat concerned. I have also noticed from some of the other apprentice’s posts that they seem to be struggling as well. I know that we were carefully screened and I trust you a great deal so I’m not going to concern myself with this issue too much. Although, any insight on this subject would be greatly appreciated.
Break Through

Right after I typed my concern about not making enough progress I went back to part 3b of the meeting and you said something that snapped a major piece of the puzzle together. I have been thinking lately that the political movement was not the common denominator to my overall picture. Something kept bringing me back to self sustainability. When you spoke about Miss Annabelle’s twelve students and their common sense being directed to biological immortality I realized that biological immortality was what I was going for ever since my awakening and I didn’t even realize it until just now! Deep down my goal was to sustain life itself! My plan from the beginning was to start a business involving self sustainable living. If people were generating their own bare necessities that it would help break people free from the system and allow them to grow. Then I realized if I could make enough money to invest in communal living and resource development we could provide better and more affordable products to the masses. If I were able to build a bigger business dynamic then we could easily out compete the ruling class. We could even bring about a better monetary system that is free of debt and inflation. I didn’t know how I was going to accomplish this until you found me and added to my puzzle (Which I will always love you for. I felt very alone and overwhelmed by the pressure of not knowing how I was going to accomplish all of this until you found me. If only I could put into words the gratitude and love that I feel for the society). What I didn’t realize is that I was going for the prime value witch is preserving life! My business is just a stepping stone to the ultimate goal just as the political movement. I’m surprised that didn’t snap into place when I first read the manuscripts. I have also felt since the first time I logged on to the secret web-site that integrating my business with the business alliance is something that I need to do. Maybe I’m making more progress than I thought.
I feel like I’m really close to a major break through. I feel like my money situation is going to change very soon and I will be able to snap more pieces together without financial stress holding me back. Hopefully soon I will be able to produce some ten second miracles and integrate what is needed to push us forward. I would like to find a way to help our money situation because that is what seems to be causing the most stress. Although at the same time is seems to be pushing us to find ways to overcome it and improve our self leadership. Maybe we should embrace our money situation because it’s such a big common denominator to our progress.
I should probably go now before I turn this integration into an entire book. I will let you know when I snap some more pieces into place.
Thank you for the meeting and for snapping that in to place for me. You are an absolute genius. I love you and am looking forward to meeting six.